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Made it into San Jose, 45 minutes after I was scheduled to, but ah well, at least I made it. Of course, the first room the hotel gave me had clearly not been visited by housekeeping since the previous tenant left - the bed was clearly slept in and dirty towels were on the floor.

I called and complained, of course, and they moved me to a much bigger and nicer room with copious apologies. So, I am now going to take a hot bath to ease my tortured back muscles and a nice big sleeping pill and go to bed. Up at 7:30 in the morning.

Wish me luck on my interview - surely I've used up my quota of bad things today, right?
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So, while I haven't talked about it particularly for fear of somehow jinxing myself, I have an interview at Stanford tomorrow for a position in their Earth Sciences Library.

I was scheduled to fly out of Baton Rouge this afternoon at 2:18. My girlfriend was going to pick me up around 11:30 and we'd go get lunch before she dropped me off at the airport. At 10am this morning, I was woken up by the phone ringing. It was Continental's automated system informing me that my departure time had changed - I would now be leaving Monday, May 23 at 3:20.

Praying that the date was simply a mistake, I immediately went to check the website. Sure enough, my flight out of Baton Rouge today had been cancelled and they'd helpfully booked me on a flight that left right about when my interview would be over. Not an option.

So I called Continental, spent about 25 minutes on hold before finally talking to a very kind woman named Melanie who completely understood my panic and managed to get me on a flight leaving *New Orleans* at 4:20. Of course, lunch was shot, and since I couldn't get ahold of J. right away, I ended up begging I. to drive me to New Orleans. Of course, J. showed up on time for our lunch date so in the end she and I. both went with me to New Orleans.

Hopefully they can bond over my freaked out response. The whole situation had me on the verge of a total panic attack and I didn't stop shaking until we were half way to NOLA.

So now I've got about another hour before my flight boards, along with a 50-minute connection in Houston (colour me nervous about that). I'll be getting into San Jose at almost 9pm (originally I would have got in about 6:30). I'll still have to get to the hotel about half an hour from the airport and attempt to get some sleep in preparation for a full day interview tomorrow.

In short, the whole experience has sucked. My back and neck are sore and tense and I've got the beginnings of a migraine.

Oh, and I finally had to go through the pornoscanner. After everything that went on this morning I was just too frazzled to protest.

I *hate* travelling. And I haven't even gotten on the plane yet.
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So yesterday was my interview at GC&SU, in historic Milledgeville, GA (read *very tiny* Georgia town). But the town, though tiny, was *lovely*, and isn't so far away from larger cities as to be completely isolating. The people were very nice, the library building (it's new) is exquisite, and it's a medium-sized liberal arts university, which means the focus is more on teaching than on research, which I kinda like. More laid back, more student-oriented. The only downside I can see to it would be having to get used to driving about 30 mins away to Macon for all the things (like Indian restaurants and decent movie theatres) I've taken for granted living in Columbia. But still, 30 mins isn't too much of a hike. And it's not like I do those things a lot anyway. And I'd be under 2 hours away from all my Atlanta friends.

I actually didn't sleep well Sunday night, although the accomodations were very nice -- an old converted bed and breakfast. So I felt a little out of it all day, and had to think harder than I normally do to answer the questions. And I thought my presentation didn't go as smoothly as the other one did, although I got several compliments on it, and the head of the search committee said she liked it so much she wished she could rush me over to show it to the nursing faculty (it was on a medical database), so apparently I'm being harder on myself than they were.

They said they had a few more people to interview and then they'd let me know, but just like with LSU, I left with a good feeling about my chances. Of course, now I'm going to be on pins and needles waiting for a response from both these people, and lord knows what I'm going to do if I get an offer from LSU before hearing from GC&SU. Must look up info on the proper etiquette of buying time while considering employment options.

Anyway, things aren't really slowing down much -- still got a paper to plan and a thesis to get caught up on -- but the real big dates are past me now, so maybe the stress will let up just a bit.
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So I got through the interview on Monday and the presentation on Thursday. Yesterday I picked up the car I'm going to drive down to Milledgeville tomorrow and read and critiqued my classmates' papers -- an assignment we were just given on Tuesday (as if I didn't have enough stuff to do this week). I spent time on Wednesday taking notes and making an outline for my presentation to GC&SU on Monday, which means today I have to turn those notes into a Power Point presentation and practice it.

I got back my thesis introduction on Wednesday as well, and while there are numerous small changes and corrections to make, she only suggested one sizeable rearrangement of the sections and didn't ask me to add or change anything substantial, which is very good.

I very much don't want to be here today, particularly since the person who normally comes to relieve me at 2 has a class that's supposed to last until 6. There's a chance she'll get out early, but in general I'm looking at a 10 hour shift with no break.

And I know I spend most of my time here complaining, but I am *so* burned out right now. I *desperately* need just a day or two when I don't have to worry about anything. Where I can sleep as late as I want and waste the day watching movies or playing computer games.

I am so looking forward to May. A whole month in which pretty much the only thing I'll need to worry about is showing up for work (where I can read novels or somesuch without worrying about schoolwork) and the leisurely beginnings of packing up my stuff since most of the jobs I'm applying for don't start until July or August (this is, of course, assuming I get one of them).

So yeah. This has been your weekly early-Saturday-morning-I-don't-want-to-be-here whinge. Hope you enjoyed it. Here, have some cheese.
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So I added a bunch of illustrative screencaps, and a little more detail, but I was still only able to stretch it out to 11 minutes. I guess there really isn't much else I can do. I can't think of anything more to say. I'll just have to waste some time handing out handouts, and try to slow down my speech as much as possible, pause between points, etc.

We'll see what happens when I practice tonight where I can actually project my voice rather than trying to practice circumspectly at work.
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Ok, so I just did a mini under-my-breath practice run of my presentation. It's supposed to be a 20 minute presentation. It took me 7 minutes. Now I figure it'll take a bit longer to say what I'm saying when I'm actually in front of an audience saying it, and not muttering to myself at work, but that still leaves me pretty short of the intended time frame.

Grrr. I hate this kind of thing.
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I feel a little better about my presentation for Monday. I just spent the last 2 1/2 hours setting up the Power Point. It wasn't as hard a I thought it would be, and at this point the presenation is pretty much done except for a quick introduction and conclusion, which I'll write tomorrow. I'm also going to fiddle around with it tomorrow at work and see if I can figure out how to include screencaps, which would be a nice addition and take up some extra time as well. But if I can't, no real biggie. I figure I'll spend some time tomorrow evening practicing, but I also purposely set the slides up so that most of what I have on them is in full sentences I can just read off. One of my biggest problems in giving presentations is my tendency to stutter and babble when I try to talk without a script, so it's better for me to just read off the screen and be thought a somewhat unsophisticated presenter than to try and extrapolate from notes and bullet points and babble like an idiot.

Now, however, I'm going to go home, heat up some leftovers, finish up some work for Dr. Thesing, and then relax for the rest of the night. I didn't think I'd get a chance to, because I figured the presentation would take much longer to set up, but truth is I really need it right now, so I'm going to enjoy my evening.

Strange.

Mar. 14th, 2005 04:24 pm
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Have not yet gotten an answer back from the GC&SU folks after my email to them on Friday asking if we could postpone the interview until the 25th. The 23rd is just too much too fast. But since it's so close, I thought they would at least acknowledge my email today, maybe suggest an alternate date if the 25th doesn't work for them.

For the past few days I have been focused rather intently on the things that needed to get done, but weren't particularly nerve-wracking -- the Romanticism paper, the thesis intro. Those things were sometimes frustrating, but I've written papers before, I know what to expect.

Today I'm already feeling that churning in my gut that is the extreme anxiety brought on by the fact that the two biggest things I need to now give my attention to are the court case on Thursday and the LSU interview and presentation next Monday. These are both new and incredibly intimidating territory for me. And while I work well under *pressure*, I do not work well under *sheer terror*.

I'm already beginning to settle into panic mode. I don't have an outfit picked out for either event. I have *plenty* of business attire in my closet for Thursday, I just need to pick one. The interview outfit might take a little more work, but I've got *all day* Friday to come up with something. I have nice work pants to wear, and at least 2 blazers that I can probably put together with a blouse and the pants and look interview-y. And if that doesn't work when I try it on, I can go find something on Friday.

These are not things I should be panicking about. But I am. I am *so* not ready for this week.
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So, I didn't finish the LSU presentation today. I didn't even come close. What I have done is choose what two databases I'm going to compare/contrast and find links to their information pages, and write down the kind of information I need to get about each one and what features I need to test, what terms I'm going to search for, etc.

In essence, an outline.

I was planning to do more. Best case scenario I was actually going to get all the information and write up a basic report for transfer to Power Point later. Obviously that didn't happen as I spent large portions of today depressed and unmotivated for no specific reason.

It's ok. I'm well on track and I can afford to work on this tomorrow or even Tuesday. Plus, I've got all day Friday to make last minute changes and still have time on Saturday to practice. Looks like I won't get Tragedy of Mariam read, but that's why I'm auditing that course and not taking it for credit.

I get off work in about 10 mins. I'm going to go to the store and pick up hair dye. Then I'm going to go home and dye my hair, luxuriate in its softness, redness, and shortness for awhile, and read a short story or two before going to bed.

Hopefully tomorrow I'll be in a more productive mood.

Am bored

Mar. 13th, 2005 03:40 pm
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Have finished first draft of thesis intro. Need to be working on LSU presentation, but don't want to right the moment. Must dye my hair tonight -- roots growing out is not a good look to present to either judge or potential employers. Plus, like always must give it a few days to fade such that it doesn't scream "I'm dyed!". Am thinking short hair will be much easier to dye this time round.

Lots of people on IM not responding. Makes me very frustrated. I want to chat to someone, dammit. I need procrastination. I've been good. I've accomplished a *lot*. I just want a few hours of whimsy and no one is co-operating. *sigh*

Yes, I'm in a slightly strange mood today.

Hair cut

Mar. 13th, 2005 01:19 pm
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Ok, so I took the plunge and cut my hair. And no, this isn't the first time I'd thought about it, I'd been considering it for awhile, but today it felt right.

So my hair is now just barely below my shoulders, with a slight undercut so it curls under or out depending on the direction it's laying at any given moment, which actually turns out to be a nice effect. I can make it go one way or the other if I want, however.

It's just long enough to put into a short ponytail, or stealth pigtails. And while I haven't tried yet, I think I could manage a French braid, if I hid the ends well. Certainly double French braids (one of my favourite styles that I don't wear much because it takes so long) are doable.

And yes, one of the reasons I decided to go ahead and cut it is that it looks more professional. And I need that, sometimes, to offset the less professional things about me.

So, pictures will be forthcoming if I ever get my digital camera fixed (but since I've been saying that for months about the cats, don't hold your breath)

Edit: Yes, it is indeed long enough for a French braid. What? There are no people here at work at the moment.
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Ok, so I survived the period of no internet access -- the internet just came back on a few minutes ago and I go home in 15 mins.

I wrote the biography and synopsis of Carter's career, the critical reception of The Bloody Chamber, and a few extra pages on Carter's use of fairy tales in general. The only thing I haven't written that needs to be included is the statement of purpose and scope and the justification of format. That should be pretty simple -- purpose is to provide a starting point for people studying The Bloody Chamber, scope is all critical articles, dissertations, interviews, and book reviews concerning The Bloody Chamber written since its publication in 1979, and format is chronological under categories (book reviews, interviews, etc.)

Basically I just have to elaborate on that and turn it into about a page.

Of course, I figure there will be tons of revision required, and I expect some "you need to take some of *this* out and elaborate more in *this* area" type comments that will require reasonable amounts of rewriting and new material. But basically as a first draft it's pretty much done.

I also wrote 3 annotations and read enough of 3 more articles to determine they didn't fit the scope and were thus rejected. So that's 6 off my list. Only about a hundred left, now. *sigh*

Stuff left to do today:

Finish the last couple sections of the first draft of my introduction. Compile works cited list.
Edit paper for Dr. Feldman and compile works consulted list.
Read Charlotte Smith.

The first two shouldn't take more than about half an hour each, if that. The last one depends on how much material is in our anthology, and I haven't really looked yet.

Tomorrow's job is to prepare my presentation for LSU. GC&SU wants me to come on the 23rd, although I asked if we could make it a little later, like the 25th. Considering I'm at LSU on the 21st and I have a presentation on the 22nd, heading out to GC&SU on the 23rd is going to make me not exactly my best for said interview. But now I wonder if they're going to ask for a presentation too? I understand that a presentation is pretty standard for these kinds of interviews, but I also thought they generally gave you more than a week's notice to prepare one and they haven't said anything about it yet.

Of course, I'm only starting to prepare my LSU presentation tomorrow, but we all know what a horrible procrastinator I am. Plus, I'm pretty confident of the material. It's just the formatting I'm not so sure about.

Oh, and all that stuff I have to do today? I'll start it *after* my nap.

Update

Mar. 5th, 2005 05:02 pm
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Interview with GC&SU went pretty well, I think. Now I'm just hanging around waiting on tent hooks to see if I get called back for an onsite with them. I *really* want to work there. And not just because it's close to Atlanta (hey, I'm selfish). The people I talked to seemed really nice, and somewhat less stuffy than the LSU folks. Plus, LSU is pretty set in their ways. GC&SU just became part of the University system of Georgia, and they're in the process of expanding the library and beginning some new programs, and all sorts of other stuff that sounds exciting to be a part of. Plus, they offer tuition assistance for the entire University system of Georgia, so I can take classes or even get a PhD at Georgia State University or any of the other state universities for radically reduced tuition. And while they encourage research and publication as part of their tenure program, there are other ways to earn tenure as well, so there's somewhat less pressure in that area, which I like. And they pay more. So yeah, I *really* want this.

I've been bad the past two days. I talked w/ my prof about my paper, and it has somewhat more direction now. Unfortunately, I didn't get as far yesterday as I wanted to on the organising my thoughts thing. No biggie. Just need to focus more this next week.

Meanwhile, I'm now here at [livejournal.com profile] shadesong's. Fun, fun!! I am now getting my [livejournal.com profile] shadesong fix. Very, very important. Tomorrow begins the work focus. Today is just for me.
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Allow me to give you a run down of my month:

Today, March 1st, I turned in an abstract for a paper that still isn't clear in my head
Thursday, March 3, I have a phone interview w/ GS&CU
Thursday, March 3, I have a meeting w/ my prof to hopefully make my paper more clear
Saturday, March 5, I go to Atlanta for Shadesong's party :)
Monday March 14, I must turn in the 1st draft of my thesis introduction (10-15 pages)
Wednesday, March 16, my father is flying down to go with me to court. We'll meet to discuss plans
Thursday, March 17, I go to court against the landlord in the morning
Thursday, March 17, my paper is due (10 pages)
Sunday, March 20, I fly to Louisiana for an interview
Monday, March 21, I spend all day in interviews and fly home in the evening
Tuesday, March 22, I have a presentation on 3 yet to be selected critical articles in class
Thursday, March 31, I have an abstract for a second paper due, topic still unknown

Tori Amos concert is on Monday, April 4th.
The second paper, and my final thesis defense, are both due by Tuesday, April 19

Of course all this is in addition to my regular schedule of work and classes. Next week is Spring Break, which means no classes, although I'm still working just as much. It is really important that I somehow manage to write both my 1st paper and my thesis introduction by Monday the 14th, because I work Tuesday and Wednesday night, and I need time to prepare for the court case on Thursday.

I really have no idea how I'm going to survive this month.

Good news

Feb. 25th, 2005 04:43 pm
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Well, first of all, Robin apparently hasn't had any vomiting or diarrhea since early this morning and the vet said he's no longer lethargic and back to his normal happy active self, so she's sending him home with some bland food for the next couple days. She said if he relapses, to bring him back in, but at this point she's pretty sure it was an isolated thing -- he probably got into something he wasn't supposed to be eating that upset his stomach. Since I've had to stop him from eating various bits of paper and other shiny things he finds on the floor this is certainly possible.

In other news, I just got an email from LSU asking me to come down in late March for an onsite interview. Which is pretty amazing since the phone interview was only yesterday. So I guess my lack of experience in certain areas wasn't too much of an obstacle. Wish me luck!

Update

Feb. 25th, 2005 10:33 am
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Interview went ok. I think I answered all the questions pretty well, but I got the impression they were looking for someone with more experience in the collection development area. I guess now it's just wait and see. I caught the last half of class where we discussed our abstracts somewhat and were then given until Tuesday to revise them. Which is good, because I know mine had holes in it you could drive a truck through. What I'm most worried about is discovering while doing more research over the weekend that my topic just won't work and having to start from scratch.

In other news, Robin is sick. He started out with vomiting last night. Then that went away and he got diarrhea. He spent most of the night sitting quietly in the corner of the bathroom. I took him into the vet as soon as they opened this morning. Then I did some research at the library for my abstract while waiting for them to call me back. The diarrhea has mostly stopped now but he's still clearly not feeling well, so they're going to keep him for the rest of the day and see if they can't narrow it down more. Right now their best guess is a bacterial infection, which means he'll likely go on antibiotics. At least Robin is the easiest of the three to give pills to. I don't even want to think about having to give pills to Róisín or Siobhán.

And now, since was up late with insomnia and up early with Robin, I'm going back to bed.
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1 hour and counting to the LSU phone interview. I'm nervous as hell. Once it's over I have to hightail it to campus to try and catch the last part of my class and turn in my abstract.

I've got plans to go to get fondue with a friend tonight. I've been looking forward to it all week, but she was sick on Tuesday and I haven't heard from her since then. She's got chronic health problems like me and I'm afraid she'll call and cancel. I'll understand if she does, but I'll be mightily disappointed. I think I deserve a reward for this week.
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Ok so this was a really bad week to get sick. I managed to go to both class and work yesterday, although it was a good thing work was slow because I was about ready to fall asleep after I got off. Slept for several hours but had a bout of insomnia in the middle of the night. Met with my thesis advisor this morning and got several pieces of good news:
1) Of the three theses she's directing this semester, I'm the only one she feels is on schedule.
2) She got called by the library at Georgia College & State University, where I have an application in (she's one of my references) and gave me a glowing report. Apparently the woman on the phone said that I was exactly the sort of person they were looking for.
3) GC&SU emailed me asking for a phone interview next week.

Took a brief nap after my meeting with Dr. James. Went back to work for Dr. Thesing this afternoon and managed to get the layout of the James Dickey Newsletter (which he edits and I put together) in its final form. Left there and went straight to work at the Med School Library.

I've been here for three hours, all of which I've spent researching and trying to come up with the paper abstract that is due tomorrow. I've already gotten my topic pretty much approved, but I'm stuck at the "oh look, isn't this interesting" stage. That is, I've noticed something that I think is meaningful -- namely a difference in the way male and female Romantic poets portray female sexuality. Where several female poets are able to portray women as sexual beings in a positive light, the male poets seem to have only two models -- the chaste flower or the sexually destructive demon (think Keat's "Lamia", "La Belle Dame Sans Merci", and Coleridge's "Christabel").

My problem? The abstract is supposed to "sell" my topic. It's supposed to make it sound interesting and new. It is also supposed to explain exactly why this "new" revelation is important. I'm not quite sure how to do that.

And don't even ask about the phone interview for LSU tomorrow. I haven't even started to prepare for that.

Oh, and another thing I noticed today: the 10 page paper that I'm currently trying to write an abstract for? The paper itself is due March 17. Same day I go to court. That's going to do wonders for my concentration and the quality of said paper.
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So I just got an email asking for a phone interview with the library at Louisiana State University in Baton Rouge. Anyone from around there who can tell me what it's like to live in that area? I know I'm getting a little ahead of myself, but of all the ones I applied to that was the one I had the most reservations about, location-wise. If I find South Carolina too hot and humid sometimes, I'm sure Louisiana will be significantly worse, and while Baton Rouge is a bigish city, it's still in the deep South so I imagine it's at least as conservative as Columbia is.

So, anyone have any Louisiana/Baton Rouge stories they'd like to share?
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Sent off 4 applications today. I'm not being picky about locations at this point. There has been a woeful lack of positions for academic librarians open in the NC, SC, GA area, which is where I primarily would like to stay. So I'm applying everywhere. I put in an application in NC in October. Today I sent out ones to New York, Louisiana, Georgia, and Montana. And I've got a few more lined up to go out in a week or so. So we'll see what happens.

And now I think it's time for a nap. Sciatica kept me up much of last night.

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