Actually, when I get into a real downward spiral I hide from the net as well if not more so. I find I can continue to keep up a front with real people, even though I've got that empty hollow feeling inside and am on the verge of tears the whole time. I'm fragile but I'm there.
The Internet feels to me much more demanding of my personal energy. I have to read, post, reply. People are expecting entries and responses and when I'm depressed I just can't do it. If all goes very quiet from me on here, know that I'm on a down.
I then get embarrassed that I haven't written in a long while, people start to de-friend me cos I haven't commented or been around and that just makes me feel worse, so I don't look at all. Drop right out of the loop. It's not good. LJ can be such a supportive place.
I think that if you can maintain contact with people on line then that's something. It's safe. It's possible it's healthier then my putting up a front and then bursting into tears when someone breathes extra aggressively.
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Date: 2008-08-05 02:44 pm (UTC)The Internet feels to me much more demanding of my personal energy. I have to read, post, reply. People are expecting entries and responses and when I'm depressed I just can't do it. If all goes very quiet from me on here, know that I'm on a down.
I then get embarrassed that I haven't written in a long while, people start to de-friend me cos I haven't commented or been around and that just makes me feel worse, so I don't look at all. Drop right out of the loop. It's not good. LJ can be such a supportive place.
I think that if you can maintain contact with people on line then that's something. It's safe. It's possible it's healthier then my putting up a front and then bursting into tears when someone breathes extra aggressively.
Anyway my thoughts are with you at this time,
Juliana