I find it takes more energy for me to keep up a front in person or on the phone than online -- I don't have to worry about smiling in an email or making my voice sound cheery. I post haphazardly enough as it is that I really don't feel too much pressure to say something intelligent, and the physical disconnect helps me feel less vulnerable when I do post something, so I can 'talk' if I want to and not if I don't.
When I was in undergrad my episodes were much worse, and I literally went two weeks once without ever leaving the apartment. Nowadays I don't usually get that bad, and right now I'm at least functional enough to be in the office, although I'm praying no one stops by to talk today. It'll go away in a day or two -- it always does -- and until then I'll hunch and hide but probably continue to write :)
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Date: 2008-08-05 02:51 pm (UTC)I find it takes more energy for me to keep up a front in person or on the phone than online -- I don't have to worry about smiling in an email or making my voice sound cheery. I post haphazardly enough as it is that I really don't feel too much pressure to say something intelligent, and the physical disconnect helps me feel less vulnerable when I do post something, so I can 'talk' if I want to and not if I don't.
When I was in undergrad my episodes were much worse, and I literally went two weeks once without ever leaving the apartment. Nowadays I don't usually get that bad, and right now I'm at least functional enough to be in the office, although I'm praying no one stops by to talk today. It'll go away in a day or two -- it always does -- and until then I'll hunch and hide but probably continue to write :)
Thanks for your kind words.