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[gwynhefar]

I know I've been whining a bit lately, but today and last night have been horrible. Really, what have I done to deserve curled-in-a-ball, muscle-spasming, gasping-for-breath pain and that's *with* the pain meds. And it just doesn't let up. Pain to drive you mad, I swear.

And in other news, Ciara seems to have forgotten that her tail is in fact attached to her, and is treating it like an annoying string toy she can't quite manage to catch. This has lead to some much needed amusement on my part.

Comments

[wldrose.livejournal.com]

I am so sorry your in such pain.

Ash

[chorus-of-chaos.livejournal.com]

I've had it bad enough that I will hold my breath for long periods of time till I nearly black out because simply the act of BREATHING is agonizing. Every single vertebra, the joints in my shoulders, my ribs, my breast bone..all of it burns and throbs and feels like every bone is coated with razors, so every breath I'm being shredded to pieces.

And yeah, that's WITH all the pain meds I have available. Usually it gets that bad with a major weather shift (I nearly typed that shit, guess both are accurate!) like if the temperature alters by 20 degrees or more or a massive weather front is moving in. We had high winds last night and I was alternating between hyperventilating trying to keep from vomiting from the pain (which I have blacked out while doing because it hurt so bad) and holding my breath to get relief from the pain.

It SUCKS. It really sucks that other people don't GET that it's THAT bad. There have been times I've cut myself (not a good coping mechanism, no, but it gets to a point where you have to do SOMETHING, and the doctors won't help.) or stuck a needle in my hand several times because that sudden sharp localized pain seems to temporarily reset the pain centers in your brain and for a brief time the overall pain fades and you mostly feel the localized pain...but it doesn't last long. It's one of the reasons I keep pushing my doc to send me to a neuro, it's a logical conclusion that whatever is going on with me, whether it's fibro or something else, my nervous system and my brain aren't working right.

I'm sorry you're feeling so fuxxored...I hope it passes soon. Glad to hear the kitten at least is providing some distraction.

[gwynraven.livejournal.com]

Nice to hear from someone else who gets it :) And definitely keep pushing for the neuro, cause it sounds like that's what you need.

[rowancat.livejournal.com]

I swear, half the country is overmedicated for all the wrong reasons, the
other half undermedicated for all the wrong reasons.
Sympathies, my worst severe pain episodes are nowhere near your level but can cause me to curl up into a ball, unable to sleep or do anything for up to two days.
Hopefully you'll find an effective treatment sometime soon and be able to afford the luxury of simply being pain free and able to function the way you want to :)

[rowancat.livejournal.com]

Forgot to ask, do any of your cats snuggle up to you, curled up to your
face, neck or chest as close as possible to comfort you when they know you're
in pain? Circe does this all the time and i've always been curious if other
cats do it.

[gwynraven.livejournal.com]

Róisín does, which is interesting because she doesn't even come out most of the rest of the time. And pretty much all the others get more affectionate -- rubbing up against my ankles, etc. when I'm in pain.

[lemlems.livejournal.com]

That sounds awful, you must be exhausted.
Here's hoping you get some relief from it soon

[opakele.livejournal.com]

I don't have any helpful suggestions. I cannot imagine, I'm sure. I'm sorry you endure this.

[gwynraven.livejournal.com]

Thanks. There really is nothing anyone can do, but every now and then it helps to whine and know someone is out there sympathising :)